February 6, 2018

What I Learned From Shaving My Head




1. Shaving my head was like temporarily losing a piece of my identity. Hair is such an integral part of our physical identities, and to just no longer have it felt strange, to say the least. I found myself questioning not only my relationship with hair, but also who I am as a person. In the end, I think shaving my head was such an important thing for me to do. It allowed me to explore my identity as a non-binary person and as a creative.

2. I discovered who truly supports me. Although shaving my head was a long time coming, I was still nervous about it. Posting pictures online was inevitable, but the support I received from it was not at all expected. A lot of my mutuals complimented my new look, as well as several strangers. I was surprised but so grateful for all the love I have in my life, even just from those who follow me online.

3. On the other hand, my mom gave me a lot of shit for doing it. It has been her mission, since I first shaved my head, to make sure I know that I look like I’ve had cancer, and that people will assume that. While I appreciate her honesty, I wish she just wouldn’t care so much about how I look. Also, fuck anyone who thinks I’m bald because of cancer. Just because I appear more feminine doesn’t mean I’m a girl. And even if I were a girl, it doesn’t mean being bald is not okay. Girls look bomb with shaved heads!

4. I have a nicely shaped head. For real! I might look like an egg, but at least I’m a cute egg. Also, I noticed that my hairline is totally unique. It looks like the edge of my hair is in a scalloped pattern, which is weird but also pretty cool. 

5. Fighting back the harsh words of the people I love is the hardest part of doing anything out of the ordinary in regards to my physical appearance. It straight up pisses me off that people care so much about what I’m doing with my body. It’s none of their concern, as long as I’m not hurting myself. I’ve gained strength from doing this- from being myself and experimenting with my looks and subsequently my personal identity. Hair is just hair; it grows back. Whereas the things I’ve learned from this have empowered me to not give a fuck what people think and to work towards looking how I want to look as a non-binary person.

3 comments:

  1. love this, I recently had my hair cut in a style that i've wanted for the longest time, everyone told me it wouldn't suit (my beloved collection of chins I'm told I should compliment not accentuate) but I thought no this is my hair, my body and my identity. I'm discovering more of who I am everyday and Im happier than I've been in a long time. Sorry for the life story haha, Love the blog!

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    1. No worries! That's so great to hear! Sometimes you just have to say "fuck it" and do what will make you happy, regardless of what other people might say. :)

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  2. Congrats girl! You've gotta do you, and remember that it's just hair: it will always grow back. Unless you don't want it to!
    -Belle
    www.twofeelswrite.com

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